Thursday, September 30, 2010

As Promised


Wandering Around an Albuquerque Airport Terminal By Naomi Shihab Nye

After learning my flight was detained 4 hours, I heard the announcement: If anyone in the vicinity of gate 4-A understands any Arabic, please come to the gate immediately.

Well — one pauses these days. Gate 4-A was my own gate. I went there. An older woman in full traditional Palestinian dress, just like my grandma wore, was crumpled to the floor, wailing loudly. Help, said the flight service person. Talk to her. What is her problem? We told her the flight was going to be four hours late and she did this.

I put my arm around her and spoke to her haltingly. Shu dow-a, shu-biduck habibti, stani stani schway, min fadlick, sho bit se-wee? The minute she heard any words she knew — however poorly used – she stopped crying. She thought our flight had been cancelled entirely. She needed to be in El Paso for some major medical treatment the following day. I said, No, no, we’re fine, you’ll get there, just late, who is picking you up? Let’s call him and tell him.

We called her son and I spoke with him in English. I told him I would stay with his mother till we got on the plane and would ride next to her. She talked to him. Then we called her other sons just for the fun of it. Then we called my dad and he and she spoke for a while in Arabic and found out, of course, they had ten shared friends. Then I thought, just for the heck of it, why not call some Palestinian poets I know and let them chat with her. This all took up about 2 hours. She was laughing a lot by then. Telling about her life. Answering questions.

She had pulled a sack of homemade mamool cookies — little powdered sugar crumbly mounds stuffed with dates and nuts — out of her bag — and was offering them to all the women at the gate. To my amazement, not a single woman declined one. It was like a sacrament. The traveler from Argentina, the traveler from California, the lovely woman from Laredo — we were all covered with the same powdered sugar. And smiling. There are no better cookies.

And then the airline broke out the free beverages from huge coolers — non-alcoholic — and the two little girls for our flight, one African-American, one Mexican-American — ran around serving us all apple juice and lemonade and they were covered with powdered sugar, too.

And I noticed my new best friend — by now we were holding hands — had a potted plant poking out of her bag, some medicinal thing, with green furry leaves. Such an old country traveling tradition. Always carry a plant. Always stay rooted to somewhere.

And I looked around that gate of late and weary ones and thought, “This is the world I want to live in. The shared world. Not a single person in this gate — once the crying of confusion stopped — has seemed apprehensive about any other person. They took the cookies. I wanted to hug all those other women, too. This can still happen, anywhere.

Not everything is lost.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Something Very Human


I just took some cold medicine.... I can go at anytime. But tonight I went to Maj Ragain's Veteran's workshop tonight and my toes are still buzzing. This feeling of spirit, a unity of souls that split open something real. Something very human. A man about to embark back to Viet Nam, hold onto a long stick like his brother, talking about when he lost his faith in humanity... when he realized war means fighting with humans. Brothers, husbands, fathers, mothers, sisters daughters. Killing a man then looking at the dead man's wife. Shooting a man and looking in his eyes while he died. It was never more real than today. We began with a poem by Naomi Shihab Nye that I wish we would have read at the end. I will post it tomorrow. This cold medicine in pushing to my fingers. I pray Tom and Gabz and Laura find pieces of their soul... inside the dirt of Viet Nam.
The sun touches everywhere



It's almost Fall and this makes me happy.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010


Man I really suck at this. But perhaps I can redeem myself. See if anyone will take an interest in a quirky lesbian from Ohio. I am going to try and write. Show what I have been working on. My writing portfolio has snagged... things always seem more finished in my head.


I Got Religion

It was like that time we sat outside the movie theatre,

and wrote messages in chalk,

Except we drank coffee.

We talked about Jesus and you told me he is love,

I told you I was a lesbian,

and you thought I needed to be saved.

I was quiet, and instead of looking at you

I watched my coffee get cold.

“I think I am finding real love in me.

And it makes me happy.”

I still believe in God.